forever till forever meets no end

Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @10:15 PM

MYAs have started. and i don't seem to be faring very well. in fact i don't seem to be doing very well in anything at all this year.

1. gym
2. losing weight
3. studies
4. that

chemistry and social studies was screwed beyond words. i don't know what i was writing at all for social studies and there wasn't enough time to begin with. chemistry was worse. no idea what i was doing.

i have yet to finish history notes and start on maths and biology. gosh this is horrible.

and i'm being a horrible senior as well. being unable to help my juniors when they need it. i can't even solve or find the root to my own problems. i don't even know what i did. now i'm feeling doubly useless cause you are suffering and i don't know how to go about the problem. its been going on for so long and i failed to notice it. i can tell its bothering you even though you claimed to have gotten over it. but what i don't get is why all the acting? between you two.

i'm feeling utterly pathetic and useless at the moment and i think i'm going to fail everything.

deng lao shi asked me to lose weight again cause she says i'm very fat when the rest are maybe just fat at the lower half of the body she says i'm fat all over. i asked dear mummy to help me and she said i can't lose weight cause i don't look fat and i have big bones which is what makes me tall. bull shit please. i have to find a way to lose weight somehow and she refuses to give me medicine to help me lose weight.

and i have enough on my plate at the moment without having to cope with all the other shit. please give me a break i can't take it anymore.

insanity is knocking on my front door.